♥ i don't understand; or i'm just tooo sensitive ?


Hello!
i'm currently back home using sis's laptop now =D . Yanran went home today , and i don't dare to sleep alone , so i come home and also prayed .
First of all , i handed in my D&T folio , product and presentation board already ! But no confidence at all , maybe just a pass . =X
Had A-maths full paper 1 today , and i'm sure i will fail , i'm tired of it , seriously i am. I become more and more demoralized after every single test, and it really pull down my confidence level . )= Tuesday is A-maths paper 2 , What to do? SIGH.
I'm beginning to understand Chem more and more ! (= , Organic chemistry kills !
Had E-maths test from 9.30 to 11.30 today , went home after that and met up with darling , then off we go to lot one , watched " WALL-E'' today, its a nice show , though little talking in the show , but the robot is super duper CUTE. (= *THUMBS UP*
&& i'm feeling sick now , flu + headache = tired. )=
i'm getting more and more independant at Aunt's house ! Will continue to strive !
Thats all , will blog whenever i can !
Goodnight readers !
tata/.

♥ Many decisions to make.

Hello!
i'm back here blogging again , Yanran , liping and ken asked me not to drop Additional maths , Mr koh asked me to think thru , i'm still so confused , they say i can make it if i just put in a little bit more effort . i will think real hard and choose the best for myself.
By the way , probably from tomorrow onwards , i will move over to aunt's house and study , till O level finish then i will come back home . I go not because i'm very very angry with my family , but i just want to find a conducive environment for myself to finish this last lap in my secondary school and get the grades that i want. i'm so afraid that i will regret about my grades in the future if i don't try my best now.
So , i will blog whenever i can , and probably this blog may be dead from tomorrow onwards.
i think so much today , and i know that actually i'm not angry with anyone , i just feel sad because no one understands , i will come home after 'O's , sure will . =D smiles ! And i will come back and stay during weekends i think .
Yanran is gonna accompany me when i'm studying , so we have each others accompany , and there we go to strive hard ! i'll make SURE she don't fall ASLEEP ! don't worry peeps (=
Thats all ,
Tata & all the best to me =D.

♥ Finally come to a decision.


Hello!
Basically i had A-maths test today again on differentiation and integration , i'm shocked that i don't even know how to do a single question , so i begin to think , and finally i had come to a decision so i told Mr koh that i want to drop A-maths , though i said in the previous post that i really want to do well , but after much thinking , probably A-maths is really too heavy for me , and now my E-maths grade dropped as well , and i have been under performing for almost every test that was given on A-maths , part of it is also because i feel that i need more time on my science.
So Mr koh reply was , he will talk to me on Monday and think of the best solution for me.
After A-maths test today , was E-maths , had test today , got 72% , one more mark to A1 . =X
Followed by chemistry , was very attentive in class today , with the help of darling and mr lee , i can finally understand the bonding . But still , more revision to go. (= , anyway i don't have a choice ! i can't drop SCIENCE. hahaha !
Had pasta for lunch , mama miiiiaaahhh !
Did E-maths worksheet today , left with one question undone , gonna revise for Science tomorrow !
Goodnight !
tata/.

♥ your words tonight warms my heart.


Hello!
Did not blog for quite a while already , so here i am.
There's things happening in school recently.
happiness and also as well as unhappiness .
I wanna talk about my studies first ! I took Three A-maths revision test this week , & i know that i'm lazy and i did not really study for the test , so the first test was on trigo , logarithm , coordinate geometry etc etc , i just merely got a pass , 30/60 . =X
Then the second test was on plane Geometry , proving of angles and triangles , 3/4 of the class failed and i got a 1/10 . ))'= . follow by today , topic on trigonometry , i did practice a little , but i forget the R FORMULA today , totally forget ! i gonna flunked this test again. Currently i'm in the danger zone for A-maths )=. Test on differentiation and integration during this coming saturday . A series of A-maths test again for next week , another round of test on all the syllabus before the actual prelim paper , i want and i will try my best . I wanna push myself further because i don't wanna have any REGRETS in the future .
Then i was saying i'm finishing my D&T but till now i am still doing it , but p.board will definitely be okay by tomorrow , submission date is on the 28th of this month . Jiayou =D.
Enough of school things , now personal things .
I believe you know that we are aware of whats going on recently , i don't wish to comment any further . Move on and you know its not worth at all to throw this friendship down into the drain.
I believe nobody is feeling very goood right now , due to the stress , due to all the things that was happening recently , But most importantly , LIFE GOES ON.(=
Lastly , i am able to express today , and i believe i can express more next time ! loveyou.
i'm gonna revise a little !
tata/.

♥ my sunday.

♥ Hope anything won't affect me.


Hello!
i'm bored & so here i am.
Had additional mathematics test this morning , can't confirm whether can pass a not , but at least i really tried.
Follow by E maths test after that , i 've got two blanks. )=
headed home straight after that to pray.
eat and rest, didn't meet up darling today.
Slept from 2+ to 4+, woke up and did my st Gabriel maths worksheet, completed. Gonna do Tanjong Katong Girls' School paper sooooon.
Today i'm super duper bored ! But at least i studied. =D
tata/.!

♥ tense up.


Hello,
nothing special happened recently, currently i'm revising hard on additional mathematics, wanting to pass tomorrow major a maths test.
tata/.!

♥ i don't know how to judge my day.


Hello;
first of all , today chinese 'O' level result is released , i got a B3 and Distinction for Oral , so i'm gonna retake my chinese paper end of this year , i'm aiming for an A . (=
Congrats to those who had scored well !
Basically did nothing much today , just pratical for physics and went high for almost the whole day. Liping was soooo happy and contented with her result & then she was laughing all day long.
Alright , a short post will do.

if problems were to occur over and over again,
unhappiness come over and over again ,
i'll still hold on.
Somehow we always manage to solve the problem
and i know you're the one for me.
i hope all un-neccessary thoughts will stop.

tata/.

♥ Just another day =D


Hello!
Just got back home .
Was having headache in the morning after i woke up , after that i was feeling quite okay , then decided to meet up with yanran and ken , so they took taxi all the way from jurong to my house to fetch me and then go back to ken house to study . I finished E-maths , most of the questions with ken's help , he was teaching me one by one , Thanks !
Finish one of the Chemistry worksheet too , but i totally neglected A-maths today , )=
So sweet of darling to travel all the way to boonlay and fetch me , then met up with sis and together with darling we went to shop for ingrediants. Though it was just a while , but at least i am very very happy =D.
So we went up to aunt house to bake a cake , the cake overflow while baking but it taste nice . Then we started joking around , making fun of the cake we baked , my nonsense make my aunt laugh till she cry.HAHAHA ! We were having a fun time man !
Alright , tomorrow school gonna reopen , stress gonna come, PREPARED !
Gooodnight !
tata/.

♥ Sentosa trip.


Hello!
firstly , i decided not to private my blog because many people is asking me to invite them , and i'm tired of always editing it.Haha.
Went to sentosa yesterday , together with yanran , terin , aocheng , keane , andrew , terin's boyf , terin's boyf's friend , kenneth , weijie . Met hao ting at siloso beach , played a while of volley ball and water , rented bike and cycle around in sentosa & then thanks to Ac , he make me fell down , bang my bike and then i'm in pain from ytd till now. =X , hahaha !
Terin also bang into the tree when delivering the ice kacang to us , though i didn't saw it , but the way yanran describe it , i'm sure its SUPER funny.
Then we took CHAIRLIFT , the scenery was NICE man , played LUGE , super duper fast and FUN!
After everything , wash up , yanran , terin and me took One hour plus to come out from the toilet , the queue is super LONG , and the people there always take their own sweet time. =X
Headed to vivo after that , had lunch then off we go to arcade , enjoyed and play like mad =DDD
There is this particular game , that we have to use the balls and hit the screen to kill something , everybody joined in and we played until SOOO ENTHUUU . LOL! wanted to wait for fireworks , but in the end we missed it.
Slacked after that & i went home with Ac first while the rest continue to slack .
FRUITFUL DAY INDEED!
tata/.

P/S , Photos will be uploaded sooon. (:

♥ Time is running out .

Hello!
didn't post yesterday , quite a lot of things happening . & somehow i believe that i really created all those things and thoughts myself.
i'm not happy in school today , i'm quiet but somehow girlfriends managed to make me laugh , towards the end of the day , boyf and me finally talk.
I'm feeling quite stressed up yesterday night , and end up ' debating' with boyf , and somehow i got hurt by what he said " if you want us to be separated , then continue to be like this'' . Then thoughts come running in & started crying.
But at least things turn out to be alright today , we managed to play , laugh & joke on the way home . =D
i did my working drawing for d&t today , and i'm finishing it , Mr chng is helping me out & thanks boyf for help me with the CUTE design situation.
after this week , i'm free from D&T , HOW GREAT !
hahaha ! i'm gonna touch up my folio tonight.
i hope after all this tiff and quarrels , it won't spoil our relationship much.
tata/.

Hello!
Basically i make my blog private ! Because i don't see the reason why i must let the whole world knows about my life .
& Of course i do invite some readers , some only.
D&t submission date is drawing near , i have yet to complete my journal .
E-maths worksheet again & again !
why ?
Today received Chemistry worksheet , theres Social studies and physics test tomorrow , i will study !
hahaha !
And i don't have much faith in anything right now , i want to see my mother tongue result.
i'm so afraid that i can't make it.
i feel so moody recently , i often want to quarrel with boyf , i always scolded him like as if he do something wrong when he didn't . whats wrong with me.
i love him , but i don't dare to love him toOoOoOO deeply.
i'm afraid.
And i don't understand why my family don't understand me at all , why must they always shout and scold when they claimed that they care for me.
quarrel is NOT = love.
TRUST = love.
i need someone to understand me .
okay , tata/.