Friday, August 17, 2007 Y 8:28 PM
Today was fine , geo and chem paper can pass bahh ,(: , still as lonely as before , no one to turn to , LOVE OR HATE ? LOST AND CONFUSED ! yuan lai ai qing shi zhe yang ): , its half a month lerhh , today avoided u purposly , going back class quickly after dismissal , so i wont have to see what i dont want to , sometimes is better to leave than staying , dont let our memories fade away , cause you know its precious , the time we had at sentosa , vivo , void deck chatting , swing , exam's over lerhh , today you come and pei me for fifteen mins , wantedd to ask you to stay , but sometimes i just dont have the courage to talk to you or even look at you , avoiding is a better waY mahh ? HOPE ? HOPELESS ? FALSE HOPE ? 知道我爱你,还要伤害我吗?每天看你笑的那么开心, i'm hurting deep down inside , cause everything just seems nothing to you anymore , got anything , also doesn't matter lerhh , haix , i only want a chance , a chance to play with you happily , able to enjoy together , 为什么你就是不给呢? 好难好难 . sighhh
Thursday, August 16, 2007 Y 5:04 PM
[[It feels like I'm drowning in salty water A few hours left 'til the sun's gonna rise tomorrow will come an it's time to realize our love has finished forever how I wish to come with you (wish to come with you) how I wish we make it through ]
[[Just one last dance before we say goodbye when we sway and turn round and round and round it's like the first time Just one more chance hold me tight and keep me warm cause the night is getting cold and I don't know where I belong Just one last dance ]]
physics for today x( , sighh , i cant do , i dont know , tomorrow have chem and geography , sat got a maths , afraiddd , x(( , i was sadd and i dont know why , haix , my heart is still pumping for hope , when i wish there are one , i couldn't stand close to you , but just look at you at one corner , and you go home , i use my eyes to sent u off , i without you , so lost and confused , not knowing what to do , when i know your heart flies off , my hope and dreams are shatteredd , only your love can lift me up on my feet again , studying for chemistry later , i miss you , all i can do is to post it on a blog , confessing all my sorrow and hurt , cause i dont know who to turn to anymore , and not knowing what to do at this point of time , peeping at my phone again and again , hoping you will message me , hope drifting away , and you dont need me anymore , how i wish , it come true , 2.30pm i saw u walking away , " u re going home , my heart sink " , 3 you come to canteen , i saw u once again , x) , i am cherishing the one right infront of my eyes , but i still dont know what to say , i dont want you to feel annoyedd ,appearing offline everyday, to check if u are there , if u are online , most of the time i wont online , cause i dont wish to see you offline when i online , haix , exams are ending alreadyy , take care
Wednesday, August 15, 2007 Y 5:37 PM
another day gone , today had english and social studies paper , x( , fail or pass ? get scolded by mr koh today ,saying that i didn't revise my a maths , so i cant do the question he gave in class , all of a sudden i feel so weak and i teared , so many things went through my mind at that juncture , including you , i also teared during my social studies paper , i gonna fail , i fall asleep , and tears roll down , i cover it with my jacket , no mood to study but still i have to , x( , i am still upset , but must stay strong infront of everyone , during chemistry , i didn't talk for two periodd , thinking a lot of things , i got back my e maths mock test , 24/50 , bad ! i cant even pass 50% , sighh , after schh , got maths till 4.30 , went home with him and yanran , playing so happily (= , play till my phone drop inside the drain , so deep , then ask a greenridge derhh help us take , LOL , though sometimes i'm still sadd , but be with him , i'm happy enough , but for what i observed in the morning , makes my heart break , thats all , hope i can pass my maths and physics tomorrow , take care , tata
Tuesday, August 14, 2007 Y 5:24 PM
I am waiting and hoping and wishing for the time, when we can be together again! I Miss You! " it has been so long , since we have talk , i hope that things are still the same , hoping it will never changed " its two weeks alreadyy , today is ur birthdayy , how i wish i can celebrate it with you , once i stepped into my house , i teared and look at the clock , how much have i been wanting to spend time with u just alone , i teared at night , i teared in my mind , tomorrow is common test , i am still missing u lots , but i'm still studying , hoping it will not affect any of my results , u wrote on my correction tape , study hard for urself and us , i'm stubborn , and i am sorriwee , though u are very far apart from me now , but still u are the closest to my heart , hopes are drifting away from me , and i teared a lot , friends are around to ask me whether i am alrightt , i am not , but smiles is what i return , just to see u online, i feel so contended , so happy , sighh , my dream , it had always been my dream that one day we wore the same watch and go out together , i saw a couple in train today , it remind me about the memories we had , they wore a couple watch , envy is what i can do for now , i'm afraidd , the boy i wanted , didn't want me , i was tossed and torn , so many took me as a joke i crawled inside myself , scared and forlorn . i read a teenage relationship book today , it says " if one day we were able to tell each other of our true feelings , letting them know what is the real feelings he/she is having now , dont be afraidd , and understands more , true love it is " i walked into the sch gates with lots of hope every morning , but i walked home with tears rolling down my eyes , u're not a bad guy , so dont blame urself , its me that is too selfish , wanting to change , ): ,happy birthday ,
Sunday, August 5, 2007 Y 12:00 PM
Yanran meeting me later , cause she kn0w i will anyh0w thinkk , s0 she help me in changing f0r the better , by accompanying me and talk t0 me , give me advices . i will change !
laytheng : u ha0 jian qiang 0h , s0 many things happen , haix , i kn0w u cry a l0t , me t00 , d0 sms me if u are b0red 0r anything okayy ? i bet he will see ur g00d 0ne day , guys are n0t black heartedd , i believe they can sense that s0me0ne is caring f0r them bahh , takecare , see y0u in dance , LOVES ~
i'm g0ing t0 finish my maths w0rksheet later ,, sighhh , triangles againn , i cant d0 ! br0ken dreams , hmm tata !
Saturday, August 4, 2007 Y 11:55 PM
hel00x ,, i am back f0r bl0ggy , it has been a l0ng time since i update , haix , s0 many things happen at 0ne sh0t , friendship and hymm , i am disappointedd n0t because we ended , i am disappointedd because 0f her , the 0ne wh0 hurt me m0st , i shouldn't c0mplain ab0ut my life , but still , i d0nt kn0w what t0 d0 , cause i kn0w everyb0dy blames me f0r n0t talking t0 her , but me lehhs ? n0b0dy understand me situation , t0t i br0ke up , then give attitudee , I NEVER ! x..(( 0nly yan ran and linsay understandd me m0st , haix , i'm l0st , tata !
Because i know;You'll always be here. ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ 
