Hello ,
just gOt baCk hOme , very very tired , still got a maths tOmorrow.ZzZzZz...
i'm so sick& tired ,
exams is next mOnday , urghhh ! gonna Mug tomorrow and sunday , DISCIPLINE man !
tOday didn't go tO sch fOr lessOn , i need a break lah , spare me a day will dO.
went baCk for maths club , confrontation ? hahaha ! nevermind , from now on , i don't give a damn , and i gonna lead my happy life,
GOODNIGHT!
tata


i just need to know you are well.


i'mGONNAdomyBESTformid-YEAR

hello.
today i'm not gonna say what i do in schOol today , but to say out all my feelings ,
all this message are basically for all my friends , i know you've been reading my blog .
so , i'm going to tell you how exactly i feel here. read it , think about it , don't have to settle it , because i know once we focus on to this problem , everything will become worst , whatsmore , we gotta focus on our studies for this two weeks.
i believe you all have seen me sticking with the guys for the pass few days , and not with you all . maybe somehow you all will think that i'm flirting with them , so your mind is " HACK CARE LA , LET HER BE", or maybe i am too sensitive .i'm sensitive because i care.i really wish to know, who am i to you all now. i really wish to know. sighs. i know you all almost for four years , and we know each other in and out. be it good or bad . i just want to let you all know that , after so many things , sometimes when i walk with you all , i really got nothing to talk about & seriously i feel so left out , sometimes i am even kicked out of the topic when you all are saying something . i feel hurt , seriously . i just got to say, whether you all can't tolerate or dislikes me . i only can say i'm sorry , i don't expect you all to treat me like before anymore , and i know we can't be as close as before anymore. you guys drift away from me in such a fast speed , that i can't even adapt to it. i know you all don't trust me in anything anymore. i don't know how each of you feels about me , but i'm hurting deep inside . sometimes your facial expression do tell how you feels about me , but i closed one eye , pretended i didn't see it . i put up a brave front , hoping that i can pull through this exam period smoothly , infront of me you all treat me like normal , behind me , i wish to know how you all talk about me. if it gotta come to an end , i shall not stop it.
tata.


maybe its just like that.

beitGOODorBAD,igottaACCEPT

Home!
after blOgging i gonna mugg , =X , must remember sOo MANY things in less than a week , time is really running OUT !
okay , nothing special happen tOday , just a nOrmal schOol day with a tiring face. HAHAHA!
ate lunCh at fajar & jOke a lOt , it was FUN lah , then went fOr maths club , as usual , did nOthing , arOund 6.45 , headed hOme ,
hahaha ! saw One guy didn't zip his pants , & the HOLEEEEE is sOoO BIG lah ! Terin is the one that saw it first , follow by me& yanran , then shafiq and esa . & its super PAISEH , infrOnt of us , he fOund out that his pants not zipped , straight away zip infront of everyone , OMG ! is super embarrasing ! hahaha ! enough of all the craps.
study time!
tata.


i guess i will be alright.


iDON'Tknow

hello!
Its tuesday today , i bet i will remember what happens today deep inside my heart for quite a long time , my day started with a smile and end with a few drops of tears .
things happen too fast for me to accept , i'm so confused .
What exactly is going on ? you don't have to say you betrayed our trust , i believe its not totally your fault. In fact you do brighten up my days and be by my side whenever i needed you , i TRUST all my friends , and i believe they won't hurt me , they never will. Seriously i love all my friends, every single one of them , no matter how much you dislike me , i still love you : DD
Actually things are suppose to put a full stop here , why she look as if she dislikes me ? am i too sensitive ? why have i done wrong again ? & again ? anyway i'm just so sorry . i hope you will treat me like how you treat the other friends , why do i deserve such a treatment from you , though you make it not so obvious , i'm a human , i still can feel & sense it. i hope things will still go back like before when we first started out & laughed like nobody business every single day.
shall we let bygones be bygones ? no point clinging onto things that already happened , i'm not gonna deny that i like that person .
I just hope you all will give me time to change for the better & won't dislike me.
who can i trust now ? Exams is less than a week , i hope i can balance between emotions & studies.
tata.


i hope what you say is true.


i NEED a BREAK!

my day SCUK totally!
i want to get out of this freaking school.

HELLO!
secOnd pOst for the day , at first thOught my day was gOnna be bored, cause i gotta stay at hOme ALONE! but went Out after that , tO meet linsay & chingwee for revisiOn , did my e -maths wOrksheet with linsay , teached me all the questiOns that i dOn't know ,
then chingwee went Off arOund 4+ , sO we continue dOing our hOmework .
shOp shOp awhile and headed tO linsay's hOuse , crapped a lot !
we chatted fOr almOst three hOurs & its full of crappy stuff luh ! we laughed like nobOdy business , wanted tO gO hOme at 8 , sO she sent me dOwn to bus stOP ,
but we begin tO chat again , sO we stayed at the bus stOp for anOther hour , HAHAHA !
then headed hOme !
tata.


i miss you day & night.


STUDY STUDY STUDY

ALRIGHT!
i'm bored and i'm all alone at home !
later gotta go and complete all my homeworks. friends went for swimming , i didn't go , so gotta be alone man ! playing games , target was 3 MILLION high scores , i can do it ! hahaha !
tomorrow is monday again , so tiring ! EXAMSSSSSS FEVER!
i don't know what happening & i don't wish to know , manipulating ?
i'm not a toy alright , sorry ? can i trust you ?
and stop saying its helping me , when its not , dont treat me like an idiot and wanting to change me. i'm who i am , i will do it on my own, its super ridiculous man!
the whole house is mine for today ! HAHAHA! my eyes are so itchy & sensitive ,
i'M BOREDDDDD!
TATA!


nothing worth more than your smiles.


i'mSOtired

HELLO!
back frOm aloysius hOuse , tOday was damn bOring luhh , did MATHEMATICS today , though didn't complete all , but its Okay lahh , tOmorrow !
i'm so lazy to update nowadays , sChool was nOrmal , nothing special , but REVISION , mid-year less than two weeks , no MOTIVATION at all luh! SIAN!
will be seating in the HALL uh , BULLSHIT ! =X
i'm tired luh , i'm dying. ) :
hahaha !
GOODNIGHTS,
tata !


i'm missing you.


ITShardd

HELLO!
tOday i didn't slaCk , gOt cOMplete whatever tEachers give us in class , but was still LAZY !
) = , i'm dying , i don't knOw why i keep vOmiting nOwadays , my stOmach rejects almOst everything i eat , whats happening man !
had geO lessOn all the way till 6 tOday , very very tired , i'm cOllapsing !
maths worksheet tO do again ,
btw, thanks for the chOcolates & sorry uh! :DD
tata !


wo ke neng bu hui guan,
ye zai ye bu xiang guan.


IWANTtoSLEEPfor24HOURS!

i'm BORED !
i'm slacking & i'm dying !
MID-YEAR is cOming in less than twO weeks , & seriously i gOtta refleCt on myself , i dOnt know wth am i dOing right now .
'O' level ? A-maths specimen paper today , was tOld to try Out the questioNS , but i can't do ! ) :
cOusin admitted tO hOspital fOr three days alr , i hOpe he get well sOoN , I MISS your laughters * mUACKS*
i'm SLACKING in GEO , fail & fail & fail . sigh !
i'm sO exhausted.
tata.!


i doubt & i doubt.


i'mINSANE!

Just gOt back hOme ,
tOday gOt a maths lessOn at nigght , and it was sOo TIRING luhh , anyway liping & i was slaCking all the way , i can't catCh up the pace nOw , gOtta be mOre discipline with myself & get sEttle dOwn alr ) :
tOmorrOw is LATEDAY, but gOnna mEeT oUT for breakfast , hahaha !
i'm exhaustedd,
tata !


if you are meant to be mine .


iWANTtosettleDOWN:DD

Hello!
sCh was pretty fine today , nothing muCh happen , just enjOy my day throughout , and
finally he Revise with us with the past A-maths tOpics & i gOt it ! ANTI-DIFFERENTIATION!
yandy was siCk , hOpe she reCover real sOon yeah .
i'm exhausted , tired , ) =
had nightmare yesterday night , wOke up at 12am and can't get tO sleep anymOre , sO i slept fOr only TWO hOurs . =X
and i simply HATE vectOrs , dOing a simple wOrksheet of 5 quEstiOns can tOok me hOurs tO complete luh !
alrights , hOpe i'll be alright .
tata.


i feel so hard to smile without you around,
i'm so confused ,
i hope its not.
i don't wanna drop into it & hurt myself once again ,
cause you know i loveyou. ):


iWANNAbealright,ANDibelieveiWILL

HELLO!
gOodmorning , haha!
bEen playing sOo MUch fOr the pass fEw days , but still gOt do hOmewOrks luh~
sCh days are getting busier & busier , SIAN!
i've nOt been listening in A-MATHS class for the pass One wEek , friday A-maths test was a failure , halfway through , the test was stOpped cause he knows that everybOdy is gOing to FAILLLL that test , DIFFERENTIATION ON EXPOTENTIAL & LOGARITHM is super DIFFICULT luh! ****shit.
sO yesterday wEnt tO terin hOuse , wanted tO dO maths , but ended up at lOt one buying new scHOOL shOes , AND off tO huanmin hOUse to borrOw mahjOng , then headed tO aloysius hOuse and slaCk all the way till 11.30pm ,
tOok sOme retarded phOtos , shOwn belOw , everybOdy was super high at alOy hOuse , music was played , and i just keeP on JUMPING ~ HAHAHA !
watCh bruce almighty , CUTE+FUNNY=NICE!
shall dO my hOmework later ,
tata ! <333



when the time is right.: DD

SOHARDtogetmyselfDISCIPLINE!



SHOT2

Hello !
BORED BORED BORED ! nOthing muCh but at least most of the peOple came tO sCh except fOr aloysius , hOpe he get well sOoon :DD hahaha !
tOmOrrow gOt A-MATHS DIFFERENTIATION TEST ! idiot ! 0 is cOnfirmed ! sigh ! chinese test tOmorrOw toooooooo ! sigh again !
theres sOoO many things tO finish , i'm sOoO TIRED luh!
tata.

maybe things are better to be done than to be said ,
And if you find you've fallen
And all your grace is gone
Just scream for me and I'll be what you're falling on
Don't get hung up on your own insecurities,
it could be the difference between today and tomorrow!


iHOPEitISnotwhatIthink:X

HELLO!
sCh was like yesterday again , BORED ! tOday got SIX absentees luh ~ whats wrOng with the virus man ! =X
this mOrning didn't slaCk in class , went fOr duty , patrOlling , caught fOur guys hiding in the tOilet , one lying dOwn somemOre, DON'T know why he wanna lie dOwn and smell his friend's **** . HAHAHA ! a-maths was still a barrier tO me , i CAN'T COPE ! & I SIMPLY HATE IT , !
went fOr dc after sChool , cOpy eight Pages without leaving a line on family values , BULLSHIT ! hand is super SUAN, and animal farm is very very hOt !
went Outside staff rOOm and slaCk all the way till 7 ,
headedd hOme !
tata !


i'm still wondering,
if my feelings are correct.


ANTI-AMATHS

BACK HOME !
tOday gOt soOo many ABSENTEES luh , total got 9!
then the whOle class becOme so DULL luh!
nO jokes , everybody anyhOw sit & and i believe AC will be angry abOut the untidyness in our class when he reach sCh tml mOrning.
had chi test tOday , was pretty stressed up cause was having stomachache =X . but manage to finish luh ! HAHA!
A-maths was again cancelled , i seriously feel that the night class dOn't work at all , he organised 4 lessOn , 3 was cancelled , so whats the pOint ?
then tOday Only linsay & me , walking and doIng things tOgether , sOoOoO BORED !
didn't go for maths club today , linsay teach me maths and i went hOme ,
was really tired !
i'm SLACKING , A-MATHS
tata!
wo zhi dao mei yi jian shi dou you yu guo tian qing de shi hou :DD



iloveyou~


iNEEDeverythingOFyou

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUANMIN&YANRAN!
today was feeling quite alright alr, knOwing that you all still cares abOut me, i'm sO glad :DD ,

Well maybe now I should just say goodbyeYou used to be my friend
But I never felt I really was yours
So maybe this is the end.I'm different from you, all of you
Each other we've never understood
I hope that if I do tell you goodbye
That it won't be for good.
Whenever I'm mad it hurts me so bad
And you don't even careI don't know why, I just want to cry
And someday I won't be there.
The streaks on my arm they've done me no harm
They're only made of pen
But once they are blood that turns brown like mud
They'll be there again and again.
If I'm mad at you I'll hurt myself too
But that doesn't really matter
Although when I hurt I feel like dirt
And my spirit's bruised and battered
.I do not know why it has to be so
I really wish it did not
But the way this has been goingit is basically shot.
You don't need me and we don't need we
And that's how I think I know why
These words are the ones I have to speak-I love you, but goodbye.

HELLO!
my number 367 pOst !
hahaha !
day was as per nOrmal, nOthing special happen tOday , just study & study & study .
sChool life is getting more and more boring, everyday dO same thing,
the mOst saddening thing is , we still have STRUCTURED remedials & MATHS club everyday,
so tiring luh ! why can't we have sOme break? =X
as usual , went fajar for lunCh, went baCk sch , played.
i finish mOst of the questions in that E-maths wrksht : DD , by tml, i can finish ALL !
theres chinese ORAL tomorrow ! SIAN!
tata !


i won't say much.

BORED!

nOthing muCh to pOst today,
just nOrmal sch day,
tata !


i can't say i hate you,
i can't say i love you.
sometimes you make me smile,
sometimes you make me cry,
so shut up !

After trying sO many times to uplOad the phOtos, still can't get it, cOm is laCk ,
sO decided nOt to uplOad it luh.
today sChool was pretty fine, MATHEMATICS day again , did SETS worksheet, and i think its damn difficult luh , i just don't understand, =X.
had lessOn all the way till 8+ tOday with ah kOh , A-maths revisiOn, was rather slack , cause he bring us through every single questiOn , sOOoO BRAIN don't have to wOrk that muCh , hahaha !
kenneth, terin , aO cheng waited fOr us tO end lessOn, then headed tO vOideck, and blOw '' bubble '' HAHAHA ! danced , guitar was played , sOng was sang .
and HEADED hOME !
TATA !

everyday was just so unexpected,
sigh !

weSHOULDN'TtakeSMILESforGRANTED=X