harlo postyy , i'm backkk , today was unusual , i wasn't with them all day long , because she found out i wrote on my blog that i feel neglectedd by them , and her reply was " we got left u out mehhs ? don have what " you feel it this way because you are not the one being neglectedd , so you wont understand how i feel , you all are just having funn , happiness is really what i need , i dont want to hold on to everything which is not necessary , so i playedd hard , i prayedd hardd , but hurtful words was what i get , yes we are close , but that doesn;t mean i wont take every word to heart , i dont know whether is the devil attacking my emotion , i'm lost , and see , whatever happens , i say out my feelings , for sure there is words from you that is pointing at me that i am in wrong , yes i am wrong , but both party are at fault , dont judge , and dont order me too muchh , i am not feeling good x....(( , i know what i should do and i know what i should not do , i know i will concentrate on things that i need to , i know it , so dont use words too hardd , i know you all meant well , but you wouldn't know how much it stab through my heart , sighs , i've learnt my lesson in the pass , so i know what i am doing alr , i dont need harsh advices , just give me time , i need a lot a lot x....(( , i hate being taken for grantedd , everyone hates it , godd , i know u will guide me through the path , i know you will let me know what i should do , your guidance is what i needd , heal my broken pieces x( , today oral , was praying before i go , i speak fluently , i answer well , i know you are there , thanks (:


i need guidance , not hurts x(