back from churchh , sighhs , not a good day for me , its them again , family , i am so tiredd of everything , sighhs , i hate that person, really hate it , you cause me all these , and i know i dont wish to see you agaiin , i am so tied down by everything , emotionally , mentally , whatever it is , me is me , i am going to change for the better , i am not going to change for anyone , i change for myself , hate me or love me , its all up to you all , i've acceptedd lots of rejections , so one more , or one less , it doesn't matter anymore , because i feel numb , this seems to be my part of life , and still it goes on , i pray and will continue , god , i leave everything to you , i wil do what you told me to , i changed , in ur eyes i changed into badd one , but i know you all cant accept it , slowly you all will know , blame me for all you want , dislike me , its not i dont care , thats all your thinking i cant stop it , so let it be then , i'm really really tiredd , really , i have enoughh of all those hurts , i hate yoo ! ~



** godd , i know what happens today , you always have plans for me in the future , even if they cant accept me , i will change their mindset and i will leave it to you , being a christian is not a crime , its a believe **



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